so...stuff, that seems to be my new word.

i'm planning on going out and visiting mark soon.... i cant wait to see him.....but i need a fucking job that is actually going to help. the place i just started at only pays 6.50 an hour....and the longest shift taht i'm available for in the evenings is three hours long. i woiuldnt mind actually getting a job that is going to work with me...i start school in like a week and a half and i would love to work 25 hours a week, but unless the pay is at least 8.00 i cant do it....i'd have to work a ton of overtime just to afford gas and school.... so the trip to see mark would be out of the question.

though, we did discover that driving out there right now would be more expencive than flying out, so i think i may do that. i almost want to surprise him.... like, work with his buddies to set up a day, and like make them take him out to dinner and hten i just show up at the place and act like it's completely natural..... and be all: oh, they invited me, so how're things?...... it sounds better in my head, sorry.

I've noticed, blogs are mostly about complaining...it's like no one can be happy for someone elses happiness, we all need to compare misery, to see who has it worse off.... just a thought.

oh, a train ride out to cali is like 550 dollars, and it takes 15 hours.... ouchie.... just a thought, again....thinking is a dangerous pastime, i know.

thought about writing some new poetry, but it hasnt been flowing lately... i read mark my poem frozen.....(it may be in here somewhere....*shrugs*) and the only thing he could really say was that there was a lot of emotion..... and he just seemed really thoughtful about it..it kinda disturbed me..... oh well.... enjoy